April 20-25, 2024
“Every feeling fully felt leads to Love.” Grace from Mt. Shasta
I was with my teacher Grace, who I refer to as “the Amma (my spiritual Teacher) who I can sit down and chat with.” Sitting and chatting with my “main” Amma is not possible since she has thousands around her and ostensibly speaks only Malayalam, a South Indian language. Repeatedly that night, Grace said that sentence: “Every feeling fully felt leads to love.”
As she was saying it, I was nodding my head as that is my experience, too. What follows are not explicitly included in that phrase but are intrinsically important and implied ideas and facts.
Every feeling fully felt leads to Love.
Every feeling. Fully felt. Leads to Love.
Every feeling fully felt leads to Love—not just the “loving” feelings, so-called “good” feelings, and not just the “right” or certain feelings. Every feeling, no matter how painful or dark. There is absolutely no limit on what feeling(s) this process will work on; it will ultimately be found to be true for all feelings. That being said, it’s generally best to start with feelings that are easier to feel and stay present with rather than “jumping” to the difficult stuff right away.
Every feeling. It’s got to be something we feel. It’s not, “Every thought….” It’s every feeling. It will work on the feelings that arise from our thoughts—even the ones from our mistaken or negative thoughts—but it must be a feeling, not a thought or series of thoughts. And, stating the obvious: emotions are not the only things we can feel.
It will even work on any feeling of resistance. But again, it’s got to be the feeling of resistance, not the story behind it. It’s best to stick with feelings that are there already, whatever they are. Drop down out of the head and feel.
Every feeling fully felt—for long enough—leads to Love. Without us thinking that it should be easy, or fast, or without discomfort! This process requires some time and can’t be rushed. It happens on the timeframe of the Life Force, the prana, not on the ego’s timeframe.
Every feeling fully felt—not thought, not analyzed, not judged, shamed, explained, talked about, or justified, not dismissed for whatever reason—leads, in due time, to Love.
Every feeling fully felt leads to Love. Fully felt. Embraced with the feeling sense. Allowed to be there; no fighting it. Met directly, exactly as it is. No coercion of it to be otherwise, nor even subtle dislike of it. No presumed knowledge of how it should be or why it is there. Felt. To allow it to inform us.
Every feeling fully felt reveals itself in layers. Every feeling fully felt, for long enough, shows itself, reveals what it is, and reveals what’s underneath it. That then felt for long enough reveals what’s underneath that. That then felt as fully as possible for some time eventually reveals what’s underneath that, what’s always been underneath that. This process repeats as many times as necessary till Love reveals itself as what underlies all that. The ever-deepening feeling process leads, in this way, to Love.
Every feeling fully felt reveals itself in layers, no matter how many layers of pain, or grief, or profound sorrow, or rage, or fear, or weakness, or doubt, or distraction, or resistance we encounter. Hence, “keep going!” As Amma says, and I often repeat, “Falling down is not a problem. The problem would be not getting up.”
In this process, we may discover that underneath the initial feeling are even worse feelings. Fortunately, if that is what we find, it means nothing other than, “Hmm. That’s what was underneath that other feeling.” We’re not really in a worse place; that is just one step of an ongoing process of exploration, discovery and unfolding. If you can, keep dropping down from the head into the heart, or some other part of the body, and keep feeling.
Every feeling fully felt transforms, usually fairly quickly. What it transforms to, when felt, also transforms. Since this whole process and the so-called individual feelings exist in the ever-changing world, what is felt has to change, just as everything changes. Conveniently things change much faster when met with our one-pointed and welcoming awareness than they would on their own. Left on their own, we are just unconsciously resisting our feelings—especially the painful ones—but we are also resisting most things occurring in the present moment. These things, as we know from personal experience, can be resisted and avoided for decades, perhaps even centuries or lifetimes.
Every feeling fully felt transmutes. And that transmutes. And that transmutes, until at some point, the final (natural and non-egoically dictated) transmutation occurs, revealing profound, silent, all-embracing Love. It is then seen that all of what had been experienced in the process had also been part of that current of Love, though in those past moments we hadn’t experienced it as that.
Important disclaimer and warning: reading all of this is potentially useless at best and dangerous at worst. It is only useful if an attempt is made—many attempts are made!—to see if it’s true or not. This idea came from Grace, who is pretty “out there” (if you’ve met her, you know what I mean), and though Ti is writing this and says that it’s true in his experience also, maybe he’s just crazy and really not seeing/feeling things clearly and accurately! It’s entirely possible; we certainly can’t rule out that possibility.
Reading visionary truths like “Every feeling fully felt leads to Love,” is, again, useless without practice. In one sense, you’d be better off staying completely ignorant than thinking that that sentence is true without applying it to get the direct experience.
As simple as it is, this process is not for the weak; hence most of the world instead tries to change egoically—letting the ego decide how it is comfortable changing!—rather than simply feeling what IS. Though changing as the ego feels comfortable changing is a necessary and important step in a larger process, it won’t lead to the profound depths that the process described here will.
And yes, this process really is this simple, not to imply that it is easy or comfortable or quick. It is meaningful, though, and profound, giving longer-lasting results.
This process is not rational. It can’t be thought. Thinking will only highjack the process and keep it stuck—potentially almost forever—in thinking. Be brave and step into feeling. Go deep. Be willing for it to destroy “you,” meaning destroy what you mistakenly believe about yourself. You will only lose what isn’t true anyway. This process will remake you into a more real-feeling, more loving and clear you!
Every feeling. You can do it. Fully felt. Yep, you really can. Leads to Love. Prove the truth of that statement to yourself. Or at least prove that it’s a lie by sincerely trying it and finding out for yourself.